i get so upset so easily over nothing. it wasn't Daniel . saying that, he said I'm not a whore. and he never thought that. he said it was will. will said it was him. what an asholeee. what ever.

so, yeah. i kinda this guy. noah, we've been friends since last year. he was my best friends ex. well they never where offical. she never actually said yes. i dont know. they never even kissed. it was reatarded. it lasted like a week. anyway, noahs changed so fucking much. hes like taller than me, and got much more attractive, and just does what ever the fuck he wants to. he gets head, smokes, drinks, skips school. i sometimes wish he could be like he was before. he was so different. he still is really funny and great to be around. he makes me laugh always. like hystericaly luagh. hes my friend. i could never to anything sexual with him, erica sucked his dick. itll feel so wrong.

anyway, a few months ago, we went on a feild trip. the most BORING thing, to some retarded musem or what ever. so noah gave me some painkillers, and we wherr trippinnn balls. they had a play ground out side of it, for the younger kids. me and my friends went under this tunnel, and i was high then. he was sitting across from me, and we just stared at each other for minutes. it was nice. then i was talking to liz about stuff we've done. she seemed so PROUD of it. maybe i should be more proud.. maybe she shouldnt be proud at all. maybe shes making it up too sound cooler. whos knows. i like the smell of smoke.